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Name: Aimee
Gender: Female
Interests: I really enjoy learning about Jewish culture/beliefs, art history classes- I think I'm the only person that likes those, any OT teachings (right now I'm really into Ruth), I'm very interested in how long it would take me to drive to Pamona, CA... does that count?
Occupation: student
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AIM:  aimbug85
MSN: asteff85@hotmail.com
Member Since:
6/8/2005
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| Tonight I talked to my parents about my desire to go overseas... and thats exactly what it is, my desire. We talked a lot about money. I feel like thats all I talk to my parents about sometimes. I am absolutely awful at saving money... I basically live paycheck to paycheck and my parents help out a ton. So whenever I bring up money to my parents all they see is my irresponsibility. And all I see is disappointment.
I believe that God places desires and passions in us for a reason. I am passionate about sharing the gospel, Africa, art, art history, New Orleans, US and world politics, and so much more. Im starting to think that our generation is much to hesitant. We limit God. We forget who He is, the God of Abraham, the God of Isaac and the God of Jacob.
A friend of mine told me tonight, "Maybe it is in fact that Gods timing and our timing are one in the same because what God desires is that we do what we are passionate about in his namesake...not waiting around until we feel a certain emotional call...but being responsible keepers of his word, we follow our passions and glorify him in the process." | | |
| I went home this past weekend... I love the drive south on 39, there is so much sky. That is my favorite thing about Illinois, how much sky there is. The colors of winter are breath-taking in there subtleness. I take it all in, the milky grays of the fields. The rich shades of red, green, and yellow in the leaves. The dramatic change in tones as daylight becomes dusk becomes night. I am a hopeless romantic... so once I get home and see the sky dusted with stars I have to take it in.
My family is amazing. Completely crazy, but amazing. My mom called me on my drive home to make sure I hadn't eaten because she had lunch waiting for me. Kenz is 15, just got her permit. I thought I feared change. I was following the car she was driving and got so excited about all the firsts I'm seeing in her life and all those that are yet to come. I'm so thankful to get to be a part of that.
I got up early sunday morning, got my coffee, and drove 2 miles to my grandparents house. The drive over there is so familiar, so welcoming. Whenever I fear committment or responsability I look at my grandparents and all my hesitations melt away. They are such a beautiful representation of love. My grandma made me cookies, and not just one kind... she kinda goes all out, we're German we don't take cooking lightly. My cranpa is the cutest thing I think I've ever seen. I love to sit and watch the two of them interact.
Jen is getting married in June. Kels and I are both her maids of honor... all three of us are cousins, but a little more like sisters. We grew up together, went through school together. It was hard for me to come to NIU.
I stopped by to see Jeremy. I miss waking up in the room across the hall from him. I miss having sleepovers in his room when I was scared of the dark. It always seemed more logical than waking mom and dad.
I love the simplity of country life. The value placed on family. I think heaven is going to be a little country. | | |
| These last five months have been the most emotional I think I've ever had. God has been breaking me of myself. He has been teacher, preacher, and healer. I think when I was a freshman here I thought I fully understood what it meant to be healed by God. I was feeling emotion I'd never felt before and he was healing me of some major idols I'd been struggling with. But that whole year the focus was always self-centered. I remember every time I'd leave counseling I would think, "Wow, that's depressing." We never talked about anything but my problems... which I guess should be expected when you go to counseling.
Do you guys remember growing pains? And I don't mean the tv show with Kirk Cameron. It may not look like it but I did grow an awful lot when I was in junior high. And I had terrible growing pains. I remember waking up in the middle of the night and crying out in pain... that right there is how is feel right now. Change in life brings on this feeling for me. I'm not one to fear change. But when you feel as if your whole world is being redefined and you only have one constant, even if it is the most unwavering constant imaginable, its hard not to want to run screaming sometimes.
These past couple months God has called me to step up in some amazing ways. This summer was one of those great defining moments in life for me... not because of one single event or person... but because God chose to reveal himself to me in a series of events. Events that called for action. That's just kinda how God does things. He doesn't teach and then just let you get on with your life, he wants you to apply what he has taught you right then and there. I love that.
So I've been doing what I do best these days... questioning. Why is God choosing now to focus so intently on all these areas of my life simltamiously? Is he preparing me now for something he has planned for me later in life? Is he making me into the woman I was meant to be? Is he breaking me of myself so that I can more humbly serve him? My questions always lead to more questions. And the only thing that they point back to is that I am and always will be a part of something greater than myself. | | |
| Hey everyone! I'm sorry its been so long... I haven't had time to sit down and update until now. Those of you who've talked to me recently know I am currently unemployed. There was a lot of illegal activity going on where I was working. I was helping keep the books so I was able to piece together what was going on. After discussing the situation with some of the staff I deceided it would be best if I quit. Right now my search for a job is pretty unsuccessful. But I'm trying to press onward.
Well at this point staff has been gone for over a week. We've been resettling rather nicely. However, we are having a couple issues that although rather minor now could potentally become big problems. The enemy is definately trying to divide the body by introducing gossip into our community. This issue may seem rather small to you but, it's creating big waves. Your prayers with this specific issue would be much appriciated.
I could also use prayer specifically. I need to not only be making time for consistant quiet times but having quality quiet times. I also need discernment when desiding how best to utilize my time and which relationships to invest in. Thank you so much for your support. Your prayers and mail is appriciated and very encouraging. I love you guys!
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